Wednesday, September 07, 2005

The 'True Sikh' stigma; the true 'Sikh Stigma'

My first day back @ school was crazy. But for now I want to share this very raw response I had been burning to write, since the first time I read this poem called: YOU GAVE GURU GOBIND SINGH JI YOUR HEAD,BUT THEN YOU TOOK IT BACK, at Gurumustak ji's blog. [Btw, if someone is not familiar with that poem, I can share it later, although this poem was also on the home page of for quite a while, this past week.]
It can be a huge assumption, but I'd like to believe that this is not just my response, this probably might be how those people feel, who took their Amrit once, but then failed and failed their beloved Guru.

It's titled: ONCE...

“i WAS a Sikh once”
do you realize how much this statement would have hurt
everytime this mouth uttered that sentence
only to see you ridicule me as not even worth the sangats’ feets’ dirt

there was and is, pride, associated to my Sikhi
that is why i join you each day
i seek your love and support
i cry
in spite, guilt, shame and regret of what i did
yet you charge me every single day
and marshall me in each one of your judgements’ court.

all the wonderful stories begin with:
once upon a time
my story too was wonderous…
until i got swayed and committed the crime
of doing the forbidden:
leaving the divine

That glorious once
i was a glorious one

With Guru’s grace
i shall but rise again
When my Father forgives me
And will all my sins slain.

i shall but shine again
Some day soon
Until then oh my brethren
Just join me in my prayer and say: Amen!

Note: I want to assure one and all that this poem is not meant to hurt anyone's feelings. This poem is also not a guilty explanation of a soul who'd have experienced it. This is just how I actualize this situation. I read the original poem and it touched my heart - in fact clinched it real hard. And then, the mind and heart were stormed with gazillion questions, the most important one that I wanna ask here. I agree that Amrit is a great daat of Satguru. But why? Why are we so hard on those who AT LEAST TRY on this ultimate path? We don't say anything to the gazillions who won't even attempt for the fear, for the ridicule that comes upon the ones who fail. I am SCARED! Yes, I am. I see all the contempt for the ones who failed to achieve their once cherished, the ones attempted dream. It aches me to think of me being at that same pedestal some day. For I cannot boast upon my strentgh. I ask you all as why? Why do you have to be so hard and harsh on those who failed? Why cannot you commend them for the trial? Support is all I ask. I am sufficed with fear :( For it is this fear that had kept me distant from my Guru. I know you might ask as to why I fear these bodies on Earth and how can the fear of "what people might say if I fail" keep me from reaching for my Guru. But ask yourself, for once today, do you not judge? Are we all not too hard on those who failed.
i am, but real scared. sigh.

this i believe is not just the 'True Sikh' stigma but this is a true 'Sikh stugma' that has plagued several, if not all, of us.


Blogger ਿੲਕ ਿਸੰਘ said...

when i read that poem on sounded really really familiar. i think it's a plaigerized piece of work. although i'm not sure what poem or a soliliqui (of a play) that was copied from.

but boy it sounds just like something i've heard before.

but anyways...regardless of that me it's a rally call...and it does pump me up (but again...i feel guilty because i think i'm being fooled because the words don't seem original)...

i don't think it's meant to make you or i feel bad it's meant to rally the troops (in a way)...again religion is a very personal thing...there's god and then there's you. and that's middle man!

Saturday, September 10, 2005 11:43:00 PM  
Blogger Sikhi Seeker said...

I see your approach now...yeah, probably you are right about the "rally call" - makes sense.

"there's god and then there's you. and that's middle man!" - I'll always remember that. Thank u!

Sunday, September 11, 2005 2:23:00 PM  
Blogger Prabhu Singh said...

It would not be fair to be harsh to somebody like you. We as sangat should support you and your search and desire to be with the Guru.
Most of my life the only 'Sikhs' I knew that cut their hair, were making a conscious effort to leave Sikh Dharma. This always felt like a betrayal to me. In the past few years, as I've gotten to know more people, I've started to realize there are people who cut their hair, but still desire to be Sikhs.
The harshness comes when people try to make excuses or justify their actions when these actions clearly violate the hukam of the Guru. I cannot and will not be welcoming to people who wish to argue that you can be Sikh and cut your hair. I can be compassionate to them because they are fellow humans, but I will always stand strong against false propoganda.
I thought this poem was more about people who took Amrit and were then making excuses as to not keeping it. Those 'Sikhs' who cut their hair should humbly and respectfully agree that they are in fact disobeying the hukam of the Guru. If they really care to learn about Sikhi they should concentrate on learning and not arguing a point which is clear: the disciples (Sikhs) of the Guru are required to keep their hair.
I hope people are not harsh to you in the future. Being a Sikh is a lot easier if you have the support of the sangat. I think most sangats will allow anybody at any stage of Sikhi, but most GurSikhs will not appreciate false propoganda, or flippant attitudes toward hair.
Sat Siri Akal!

Wednesday, September 14, 2005 11:05:00 AM  
Blogger Sikhi Seeker said...

Prabhu Singh ji:
Thank you :D:D
...for your kind words.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005 6:22:00 PM  

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